You might find beauty or a beast when you start looking for yourself. Its a real challenge between love and hate to yourself. Whatever you have done, whosoever heart you have broken, they all lie infront of you and you feel almost fainted trying to pick up to good parts of it. Fixing things won't work. Nothing broken will never be the same again. So the best is to start over. Stop hating yourself if you can. Tell people that you are sorry and you'll make up for it.
Write beautiful songs, make people smile.

That should fix a bit.